For the past 4 or 5 years I have felt bored and lonely often.
I felt bored
Business was working more or less on autopilot.
I had a lot of free time and didn´t know what to do with it. I didn´t get any special satisfaction from work, but I also didn´t know what else I could do to have more fun.
So I travelled and walked a lot.
I felt lonely
Before getting married is more or less normal, because I was lonely.
But even after getting married.
I demanded from my wife that she paid more attention to me, instead of to her interests. Even if I knew that that was not right. I felt jealous when she dedicated time to friends. And I felt that I was just running behind her because I didn´t have anything better to do. So I felt useless, like a burden.
The tipping point
One day my wife (who never gets mad and is always in good mood) got mad at me because of my attitude.
That was the tipping point.
I saw very clearly that I couldn´t be doing that to my wife, that if I continued like that I was putting in risk our beautiful marriage, and that I was harming a beautiful person that was guilty of nothing.
The simple decision that solved both problems
I finally saw that I had to get involved into something that I wanted to do.
That´s when I made the decision.
I had 2 options:
- Start a hostel
- Follow the path of yoga
Starting a hostel was not an option in that moment.
First because the world was still recovering from Covid. And second because we were still finishing two renovations of our flats, and thinking of buying, renting or renovating a house in order to make a hostel felt like a huge thing, too big for us in that moment, in terms of energy and money.
Therefore the decision was clear: I would follow my interest for yoga.
I decided that I would become a Yoga Teacher
- I don´t feel bored. The day is too short to work, practice yoga, read about yoga and take care of the family, all of which are very meaningful
- I don´t feel lonely. I am very happy when my wife meets friends, because she is happy and because I can either join them and have fun or make use of the time for myself, for my things.
So having a goal and pursuing it solved my two biggest problems of the previous 4-5 years.
But I needed some time and especial conditions.
Sometimes we have to see the consequences of our actions or inactions.